
I got the usual phone calls from my family. That’s kind of what we do. We call each other and sometimes we sing
happy birthday. But I missed each call
today as I attended to my sweet Mabel. This
is a different gig for sure. It is
consuming in ways that I didn’t imagine or managed to forget. I was happy to
know that my family remembered me today but not unhappy that I was busy when
the calls arrived. My husband, still in Vermont, sent a beautiful
bouquet of flowers that I will enjoy all week long. I guess he misses me.
I had been in charge since 7:30 this morning when the kids
went off to work and then to a rehearsal dinner for a wedding that they will be
celebrating this weekend. It was a long
day but not without joyful moments. What
is better than teaching your first grand baby to sing Happy Birthday? We sing and we sing a lot. She seems to love it and of course so do I.
But my heart aches a bit for the life I had when life was
overflowing with friends and colleagues and loved ones. This experience of being in a different city,
with a different family, albeit my own daughter, is a bit disorienting. I am NOT complaining. Not one bit.
But I am feeling the loss of my old life, in Vermont, in Boston, in
business, with my a cappella group, even at camp. This year, it’s
just me and the baby and the dogs. I
guess it’s all part of the passage of becoming a grandparent and leaving behind
a busy work life, at least for now.
That’s my gig for now.
Perhaps next year, I’ll throw a different kind of birthday
celebration. Who knows. Maybe I’ll be lucky enough to celebrate with
some of you.